I must have a very good heart.
I must not be selfish.
It's not about ME anymore.
Im gonna have a small family soon.
I must learn to share (erkkss.....my money???!!)
I must learn to give and take.
I must learn to be patient.
I must learn not to talk bad about others.
I must learn to be positive.
For things to change, I must change first.
I love everyone.
I love myself.
I must accept qada and qadar.
I love him.
I love my family.
I love my baby.
I will finish my studies.
I will finish my research (quickly, please..)

36 weeks..

Baby's weight is 2.75kg.Now going to the doc for check-up every week...I can deliver anytime now, but hoping and keep on telling baby to come out after I finish my classes (18/12) or masa due date (24/12).Hub nak baby keluar 12/12...nice date. We'll see....Baby tak nak tunjuk muka this week,menghadap ke bawah, so nampak telinga saje..

Have to go for X-Ray this Friday @ Tama Hosp, Noborito after doc did nai-shin tadi. To make sure whether I can deliver normally or not..

Hub said something yang membuatkan saya sangat terkejut and soooooo KANDOU (terharu) !! Menangis on the spot, sampai nurses nampak dan bergossip..'Gaduhkah?, waraisugi (gelak sampai menangiskah?)' ....erks...kantoi...Dia pun terkejut kenapa tiba2 nak nangis, bukan happy ke? Tapi saya sangat KANDOU !! Then one of the nurses approached us and asked directly....pakcik ni punya lah baik pegi cerita semua...hai laaa.......habis pecah himitsu (rahsia)...Nurse ni pulak baik bangat g jumpa geng2 nurse dia and cerita....hello nurse, saya dok kat luar, saya boleh dengar,ok...malu malu....

After maghrib, I had a jolly good time at Lady D's...Arigatou !!

RASA

Told u no mood to eat my own cooking. No class today and dont want to waste electricity (heater), so i went to RASA for lunch. Ini semua gara2 char kuey teow pic from 'The Wife' 's FB lah ni......Dah tiba2 craving for kuey teow pulak..Miss my mom's kteow, the best in the world ! Nak buat kteow from scratch macam K.Hani, ampun.....

Hari tu J tulis pasal dia masak lambchop kat rumah @ FB, ha...i terus order lamb kat BATICROM. Sekali makan 3 keping...Hambik ko !

Had CKT for lunch, 'tapau'ed Chicken Rice for hub and Curry Laksa for dinner. Heheheh...sukanya tempat ni boleh tapau tapau....suke suke... The lady tauke pun terkejut tgk, sekali datang order macam2.....my ckt comes with salad, mushroom n egg soup and bubur cha2...hehe....me rupa bubur cha2 pun tak tau camana rupa..ape daaa.....

Nampak lady tauke served her husband lunch with a big mug of teh tarik, so me gatal NAK jugak !!

On my way there, nampak bicycle taxi, ...
On my way back, i saw a triangle ice cream and rainbow roses..

I came home a happy pregnant lady ! Alhamdulillah..

When things didnt go your way...

You thought you were the lucky ones, coz God granted your wish..
Turns out that is not what u really wanted , you want something else..
Tapi bende dah jadi, is there any way to turn back?
Some things makes u happy, some do not..
So what do u do??

Sheilla kata: Do things that makes you happy..
Bet ada tulis : Be grateful with what u have,not what u do not have..
Hamza Yusuf wrote : Be patient, just like Ibrahim a.s was patient when his son Yusuf was thought to be dead (angkara the beradiks) until he lost his eyesight crying for him.

It may be that you dislike something,though it is good for u.And it maybe that u love something, though it is bad for u.And God knows and u do not know. (Quran, 2:216)

Just saw AZ's video compiled by the daddy,Az from PP...Sangat comel budak itu !! He is sooo huggable at 2 ! (heheh...macamlah dia kenal i pun kan)..

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Time2 frust camni, coz I have to start anew, Prof F sent me an email meminta untuk bekerjasama...alhamdulillah...

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Left the house at 6am yesterday for my 10am class, sampai tertidur kat eki (tak larat ok!)...only to find out that one lect. couldnt make it and the other one was busy....hmmm...apa ni??

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Lady D invited us to her hse this Saturday, coz nak menjamu me before i enter my pantang period....Awww...so sweet ! Siap tanya nak makan apa lagi??? Terharu !!!

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No mood to eat my own cooking...only cook for hub and luckily he's not fussy...I makan luar...then balik masak..

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Cant wait for Ladies Day Out this SUNDAY ! Jalan2 @ Ginza to try out THE BAG !!! kkekeke....

35 weeks.

Baby is now 2615g. Naik 400 g lagi...and I reduced weight....YAttA!! Alah....0.5 kg je....but enuff to make me, the nurse and sensei happy, ahaks !!! Balik rumah tadi tibai makan segala macam...wakakakk...macam orang kebulur aje..

Baby is still covering her face with either one of her hands...so selalu nampak either right or left eye saje....

My tummy is now expanding from right to left...rasa berat kat bahagian bawah...sensei kata baby mok mok...kepala dah cyodo ii...tapi badan besar....

Susah nak bangun.

Ingatkan pendek waktu siang, boleh puasa ganti....
Tapi..
Susahnya nak bangun sahur !!!
Sejuk.....
Malas....
and akhirnya tak puasa lagi...

Happy Again !

Thankful for today ! T*my is a nice, sweet Peruvian MD who is sooo smart and kind. In 研究室 just now, I baring atas 3 kerusi and she checked my tummy....Told me not to force myself to go to school everyday and I should take enough rest before the bundle of joy arrives....coz it's gonna be hectic..

Gr*ce gave me some opinion on research proposal..to do my research in Japan (coz nak balik Msia, pakai duit babe)..so ive got some new ideas on what to do now, but hmmm..gotta start from scratch again...read journals, print out, yada yada yada......

I can do it !!! Yes I can !

Penenang hati..

I used to have one when i was in UPM, same age, but very motherly, and soothes you like a baby when u feel down...Ina namanya..

Yesterday, spoke to my new penenang hati Japan, Nor P namanya.....alamak, gelak tak hengat....very funny and she made me feel 'bersyukur' with what I have and seems to know the right answer to everything..

Very lawak your lawak yesterday.Me and hub had a great laugh !!

'' Think happy thoughts and you'll fly ! '' -Peter Pan

Have been a bit stressed out after my proposal presentation last Wed. Many said 'it is an usaha murni, you are doing something meaningful for these ppl', tapi susah ok...Ada yang kata'you are very ambitious, this is difficult to do, yada yada...' Penat sih penat.....

So am not sure whether I'll continue doing this research or I might change topic again for the *th time...penatlah...Orang buat study kat Kenya ada support from NGO, yang g Cambodia ada cable, yang g India pun ada nak tolong, me orang Msia pun tak de support, wuhooo...camana tu?

So i tried emailing this other Prof in Msia whom Ive just met last Sept in Yokohama, she seems to give me a neutral response...hmmmm...

Dah dapat feedback from her yesterday baru ada mood nak start balik..

Pokong pokong

Hehehe....welcome welcome..

The blog is long overdue due to the owner's inability to remember her 3-4 usernames and passwords,haha...

ok..first entry.

This word is my oisha's fav (i dont know whether he created this word or there is definitely a word like this to describe a girl's toot). He's been mentioning this whenever we go to c him since I was 5 1/2 months preg.